Lately, a significant number of things have happened that made me feel like I need to start writing again. It used to be something I really enjoyed doing. My degree even has an emphasis in creative writing. At one point, I had a dream of being a published author. I didn't have much more direction than that. I didn't know if I wanted to write a children's book, create a fantasy world, or delve into the real world and write some creative nonfiction, my favorite genre while I was in college.
That was a long time ago. I am now wildly out of practice, barely even do any reading anymore, and feel that I have absolutely no creative juices, let alone any idea of how to get them flowing. What I do know is that I have always found writing to be somewhat therapeutic. I've never been any good at debating or even having a conversation where I don't come away feeling awkward and pathetic. Writing has always been much more friendly to me. It allows me to take my time, make mistakes and fix them without anyone knowing. When I can't think of the right word to say to convey the right meaning, I can take a step back, scroll Facebook, or do some other mindless activity until I think of just what I wanted to say. You can't just walk away from a conversation for a few minutes and pick it right back up after you've found the right words. At least, not without looking a little insane.
Anyway, as I said, I've been feeling like events in my life have been pushing me toward writing. I'm not sure why or what I'm supposed to write, but I figured this would be a good place to start. Maybe I would feel better about life in general if I just start blogging/journaling again. I think a big reason that I always stop is because I assume that no one is interested in what I'm writing. For that reason, maybe I should use a more private medium. But typing comes so much easier to me than writing by hand. And if I'm typing, I just feel like, I don't know, I might as well share in case there does happen to be something someone else is interested in. Maybe not in this case, where I'm just writing the ramblings inside my mind. Or maybe exactly in this case, because someone else is experiencing the same ramblings. Who knows?
All this to say: I'm going to start updating my blog again. It's mostly for me, but I hope anyone who feels inclined to read it doesn't feel like they've wasted their time.
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